Life Of A Knight's Knight

I really think I've been spoiled by my classic view of what a "Paladin" is.. I know Final Fantasy has a video game standard for what a paladin is.. but the classic Arthurian Legend (well..also maybe a bit on Don Quixote too) is that a Paladin is a Knight's Knight. The Knight who is pure, pios, stalwart and brave to a fault. The whole fight between Lancelot and King Aurthor was one of those "I am better than anyone; therefore, I'll wait here, beat up everyone who comes by until I find someone who can beat me." (lol..itsa male world after all).

But still, I like the idea of a "Holy Knight." (One reason I made the angel wings... hehe... I'm my own holy kitty knight. I think if there were women Paladins, they'd have wings.) Holy avenger, curing people, blocking the way. And I'm having a lotta fun with it. In XP parties, I have a lot more to do than I did as WHM... probably less than I did as RDM... and I believe I'm doing a good job. I think about the every little thing that made me mad before.. like on links.. my job as tank to split my hate to make sure the sleepers stay alive. And I can actually keep hate...which..is hard sometimes; I can't say HOW MANY times as whm I died while the Paladin had FULL mp, and couldn't keep hate from a Tarutaru bard... Still, I am learning the fundamental differences between a blink and meat tank. I XP'd the first time past the Moongate (annoying.. I got the moongate pass, yet..hardly ever use it) and I was a huuuge MP sink. Everything...hurt. I suppose if we had a BLM for MB we could have chained faster, but those people I was with, including the WHM were all troopers. We had an okay session, but a fun party--which..I gotta say.. I'd rather have a FUN party than anything else.

But .. soloing...I'm having a fun time playing around with different things. I've discovered the fun of Phalanx (getting hit for Zero w/o stoneskin.. is fuuun) and stoneskin. Paladins get a decient Enhancement Magic, but nothing on Enfeebling. It doesn't give me an answer against these meanie ants that keep casting Antient Magic on me.. but.. still.. better than nothing. Not exactly decided if I like the RDM or WHM sub best... lol... Now... DRK sub is just.. fun. Maybe it comes from my personal belief that Paladin is a holy job, subbing DRK is just a naughty thing to do...might explain why nobody but me gets the joke.. But I get both a nice attack boost to go with my defense boost, and double Killer traits. Althought.. I did end up hitting so much with souleater I agro'd undead..but..you get the picture.

Ah well. Its all good.