Standing on the backs of Taru

I've make a clean break. I've moved past the things that were bringing me down and.. had a little fun. Had a really lousy xp party last night, but had a really good time doing it. The red mage really didn't like me.. I had left a "party from hell" she made, and I'm sure she hadn't forgiven me yet.. but everyone did a really good job. We just couldn't do enough.. barly broke 5k xp in 2 hours. But it was fun.. people (not the rdm) laughed at my jokes.. the whm was amazing--considering I have trouble talking whm into keeping my Hit Points above 50% and pleaaase cast Paralyna on me, the fact that he could Erase Bio III from me before the icon even registered..was.. amazing.

I've also started up with a new LS.. free from the ulcers I was developing over the old one. Bunch of shiny happy people... should be fun. Its almost comical how often these gatherings match real life when all we're hoping to do is to get together to have fun. But its all about like minded people doing similar things. And no matter what, there will always be a conflict of ideas..cause no two people ever think the same way. My god ls decided they wanted to kill some HNM that had come available, and called for everyone to drop everything and go kill. I said.. no. I was in my Paladin gear, just pulled out my NPC to level, and I really had no inclination to kill a huge HNM. Possibly.. if I was in my WHM gear and wasn't do anything else, I would have; but the main reason I joined this godshell was because.. they didn't do this sort of thing. This occasion was just a monster of oportunity. I was quite the minority of one in this opinion. But I was in an HNM that did this same thing before..and nothing made me hate the game more than having this "minute men" mentality. And whats worse was while they kept all of their promises, I was literally loosing gil and xp for no benefit. I made more gil just crafting. They just said "do it for fun" which..obviously..wasn't working, so I left. As synical as it sounds, my opinion of these shells is that the leaders and close personal friends of the leaders get all of the perks in these cases... misteriously... and everyone else gets nothing.

I have to say I'm very greatful to seashell. I've never felt completly apart of the group, but I came into the group with the idea that I'll have a little fun doing some pop HNM like gods and BCNM and what not. And they've been very generous. lol.. I'm glad I can dissagree with the majority from time to time as well.