Wanting to be Wanted

I always wanted to be somebody. If I made it, it's half because I was game enough to take a lot of punishment along the way and half because there were a lot of people who cared enough to help me. Althea Gibson (1927 - )

There was a dream I had about wearing red warrior armor. Wasn't a special dream, but I always liked the look of it. Very "warrior princess" if you ask me. And a very bright red, very pretty looking. (Yeah, I know, but bright colors attract me since I can actually see them.. being mostly color blind).

So why am I leveling the most expensive demanding job I have ever had? Ninja? Oy vey.. good question. Cause... I can't seem to get parties.

The whole question of what job gets invites and what job doesn't seems to be up to how many people are floating at that level. At this time, as a WAR/NIN I hardly ever getting invites, and when I did, it was by people expecting me to tank...as a warrior. And when I looked into it, the times that I was seeking, there really weren't any tanks to be had, let alone other important support jobs. So I was stuck doing what I was doing--running about killing ep's for low xp--or leveling another job. And if WAR can't get an invite, DRK most certainly would not. SO, I bit the bullet..and a huge price tag...and leveled ninja.

Don't get me wrong... ninja is fun enough. It's just that I have yet another job where I am expected to have a billion gil and unlimited resources to obtain ninja tools and what not. And I'm expected to use a ton of tools every minute of every experience point party. I have to say, Paladin was much less pressure. But for a ninja to keep hate, she has to pretty much do as much damage as possible and make the monster upset. I really missed the days of the early white mage when everyone wanted one. Even as a paladin up to a point, I was always wanted to fill in the essential tank spot. Yet when you are the "everybody" job, its very difficult to get people to take interest in you.

I know there are about 1000 dark knights and dragoons who will read this and start swearing at me. I understand. But I think its a question of finding a group of people in the similar level, and ride with them. Thats why I frequently had parties with the same people for a while until my level gap became too much. It was a very easy prospect getting my Dark Knight to level 40, but there was a large group of people who were, like me, on the trip to the next level. Maybe its just a question of finding the right people at the right time. And now is just not the right time, I suspect.

Still.. who doesn't want to be wanted by someone. Otherwise, what use would there be for a dog?