Lithium Laced Tuna

Can we have a cartoon cat to look after?
-- Gregory Mark
The happiness of a [woman] in this life does not consist in the absence but in the mastery of [her] passions.
-- Alfred Lord Tennyson (1809 - 1892)

We continue yet again in the path to the big bad battle to sea. It was a very interesting yet.. fustrating run. I often wonder why they do these things. There is one tower that consisted of 16 doors that if you check the door, a NM pops and then there might be yet another mob on the other side to try to kill you. Kill, rest, move, random agro. Fun stuff. And the end... we click on a door and get a simple cutscene. Yeeesh. We even got a snoll blow up on us (stupid stun macro).

Later we continued the whole process by visiting another tower to speak with Fenir; a fun little tower with one way doors and drops and many goblins and bats. In fact, one goblin came so close that one of our group cast invisible in front of a magic pot. Thankfully, she took one for the team and just died since the rest of us were in Cut Scenes and couldn't act.

From there, we ended up into the Movopolis to do a ENM that went very well. Which I think made the next step even worse: The 3 Mithran Sin Hunters. Do not believe this to be a pushover, because we managed to wipe 3 times before we won. The idea is almost as if we had a level 70 Ballista and were only allowed to go in as level 50 jobs. It was amazing how fast they would skillchain me and whip out end game weapon skills. However, a good man came out on bonds of friendship with one of our memebers and played the blackmage. And we won.

All wins and losses aside it is amazing how much a little or big loss affects our ability to perform. It makes me think of loosing a very small screw in shag carpeting: You pick it up only to drop it over and over again. Almost like the way people describe golf, the worse you do the worse you get.

In the past days, I've made more than a few mistakes because of the fear of making a mistake. I have hedged my participation based upon the fact that my friends need me and I will answer the call. Which means.. I really am afraid of failing them. But they've been supportive and understanding, which means the world to me. Even last night with the Mithran hunters and failures, we all stuck together and managed to get the win.

Lithium Laced Tuna... yea.. I definatly need something.