Dealing with Denouement

How many ages hence Shall this our lofty scene be acted over In states unborn and accents yet unknown!
Julius Caesar, Act III, Sc. I

Some people can deal with excitement very well. Some people absolutly thrive with adrenal rushes and excell and exceed. Some people actually watch nascar to see cars drive in circles.

Me... not so much.

I'm not saying I never do anything exciting. As often as I have complained about cannon parties, I still have joined them on a regular basis. I do BCNM's, hunt dangerous NM and do staggering Missions on a regular basis. I'm just saying.. they make me wanna hug my fuzzymice.

Hehe.. let me just describe my normal life. Normal for me involves a process that includes regular cycling of imbalanced neural transmitters in my brain with lots of wonderful side effects. This includes anxiety, random paranoia, frequent crying fits and many other things. The emotions and reactions I go through in these exciting conditions are just all too familiar.

Don't get me wrong; I still will always do them. There is just this period of time after each event that I do not deal with very well. I call it the Denouement (de-n-um-wa) after the theatre term for the period of a story that happens after the climax of the story. I calm down, frequently depression sets in. And I often miss the excitement. Most of the time, I'm rather pensive and grumpy.

Let me call this as a universal apology to people who have to deal with me at these times. It has nothing to do with people involved; its just my normal me. I don't deal with Denouement very well.

I have had to deal with this whole thing very fequently lately. I am with a group of people running the Chains of Promethia missions lead by Windaria, and I have been continually amazed at how fast and well we have been doing. I give credit to the people we have invited along, but more importantly, I give credit to Windaria for leading us so well. We've just finished the last Promy after hearing so many horror stories about it and we made it with only one death. After the first three promys, I could hardly believe how well we did. And unfortunatly, after each of these fights, I find myself in a pensive and low energy mood.

In spite of everything, I will probably keep going and doing the things that cause me such stress. But I don't mind. It will be worth it.