Moving On

I finally did it. I finally walked away from the game that has been such a part of my life for so long. This last night, I deactivated my content ID's. I did go in and visit with my old friends, and killed a few things for the old time's sake, but I was able to walk away.

I guess this is a question every player asks.. Do I need to play this game or do I just want to? I think for a majority of the time, I needed to play the game. It was due to the fact that I met and held so many friendships with so many people online. I never before had such a feeling. And I kept going back more and more for the interaction.

I guess, on it's own, it might sound rather pathetic. But that was the nature of my life with autism, manic-depression, and many other disorders, it was a wonder I could function at all. But the bravery that internet anonymity granted me lead me to greater and greater real life bravery, along with other therapy and medicine.

Which has lead me to the life I lead now. I am married now, and loving every moment of it. I have more friends now, and I am doing very well in my real life endeavors. I have a new job which I love and keeps me busy. I find myself wanting to play games less and less all the time. My interests have just shifted. One time when I had some free time, rather than loggin in, I decided to write a calculator program. Mainly because I had forgotten how to do it, and I wanted to remember the process.

Well, I know by not deleting my characters, it might turn out that I return. But I will leave that for the future to tell. But in the mean time, I leave with this:


If we shadows have offended,
Think but this, and all is mended,
That you have but slumber'd here
While these visions did appear.
And this weak and idle theme,
No more yielding but a dream,
Gentles, do not reprehend:
if you pardon, we will mend:
And, as I am an honest Cat,
If we have unearned luck
Now to 'scape the serpent's tongue,
We will make amends ere long;
Else the Cat a liar call;
So, good night unto you all.
Give me your hands,
if we be friends,
And Darlene shall restore amends.


Please continue to return to my blog. I will still be writing. And I will love to hear from my old friends. All of them. Too many to count.

Meyaou ^.^